Again...

So again, its almost 6pm on a Sunday afternoon and its been my super uber lazy day. I was up all night just not being able to sleep. Didn't actually get the chance to catch some shut eye until almost 1030 this morning. Then I slept only until about 5pm.

Sometimes this whole sleep thing really becomes an issue. I feel like I am up when no one else is. Which has its positives, but I feel like if I were like normal people and slept during the night and woke up early in the morning, I may be a little more productive.

I want to get Lylianna's room all clean and set up so that its one less thing that I will have to do as I get bigger and bigger. Speaking of getting bigger and bigger, I have been using the Palmer's Belly Creme and the Tummy Butter, but to no prevail. I have gotten the stretch marks. But in a wierd way, they give me the push to make sure that after the baby, I am not like the other girls around here. I am set on the idea that by my birthday I want to be back to my prebaby healthy weight. I was always the heaviest in my family and it really puts a damper on you sometimes. I was always thick, always solid, always not graceful. But about a year and  a half ago or two years, I finally got my weight in check and I was the thinnest I have been since I was little. And I felt great. Then I got prego and I am gaining the weight back.

I just keep telling myself, I don't mind the weight gain because its for Lyli. But I DO know that I will be on a strict diet and exercise plan once my little miracle arrives. Not just for me, but so that my husband knows that I am still putting the effort. :) I love when he just looks at me and says something like, "You know... Your really beautiful." It just takes my breath away. Especially when its from the man I love whole heartedly.

Well, Ive been thinking of doing some rough draft poetry and children's book, just to keep myself a little more busy at night. Maybe that can help me sleep better. But I just feel like I need something that will keep me busy, besides the decorating. I haven't had a job in almost 2 months. Thats a really long time when your used to working since I was 14 years old.

Well people out there.. I don't know how many of you are reading this, but Thank you for the support!

And hopefully there will be a YouTube Video from me soon!